Turns out the news is both good and bad at the same time.
I had a conversation with Nicole, my PT, today about duration of healing time and the future of my running career. The good news is that I will run again. The bad news is I will not be running the New York City Marathon in 2013. When I told her I was already registered for the race in November and asked if it will be possible for me to run it, she said “not likely.” BAM! Holy cow, this shit is serious. I mean, I knew it was, but I honestly thought it might be possible to be marathon ready by November. I had my cry, and now I’m ready to get well.
This is also good news. I like to see the good in everything that happens in my life. That’s not easy to do in all situations, but in this one, it is. I can now focus on my recovery with no timeline. I will not be disappointed in a few months when I know I need to be starting marathon training, and I am unable. This injury is going to take months to heal. I already had a feeling about this, but Nicole confirmed it for me today. When I thought about the race being in November, and me needing to start training by July, I naturally had a feeing like it would be too much pressure. This is the right thing to do. I know it is. Even though it sucks, not having a timeline and an unreasonable expectation of when I should be ready to run again will allow me to really focus on the issue at hand.
So for the next couple of months, this will be me:
I had a great swim this morning at the Y! I did 700 yards (or is it meters?), which for all of you who want to know what that is in laps, is 14 down and back or 28 lengths of the pool. I have a love/hate relationship with swimming. It is hard. Yeah, we all know that. It takes a lot for me to get to the pool, but once I’m there, I feel such a sense of accomplishment after I’m done! Being at home so much by myself tends to put me in a dark and lonely place sometimes. I just get lethargic and tired, and completely unmotivated to do anything. It’s really hard to get out of bed some days. Once I do, though, and get in a swimming workout, I feel SO much better. I have to keep telling myself that all I have to do is get up and get in a swim. Since swimming is the only thing I can do, I plan to be Michael Phelps by the time this is all said and done .
As far as my recovery goes, I feel the same now as I did two weeks ago. It still hurts if I stand or walk for more than 10-15 minutes. Nicole says it is normal to still hurt, so I am not giving up hope.
She said that she wants me to be able to put an exclamation point at the end of “I’m back” when I’m finally healed. I agree with her!
So NYRR, please please please please PUHLEEEAASSSEEEE let me defer my entry until 2014!!! I beg you! It really is a situation beyond my control!
I’m off to have either a bake-fest in my kitchen while sitting on my stool, or a “sand-fest” while I work on my table tonight. I need to keep my mind busy. It’s a scary thing to be alone with sometimes. I miss all of you running friends! I’ll be back eventually! When I am, get ready!! NYC and Boston here I come!!!
Love you all!
‘Til Next Time!