I have been told by my friends that I am a very positive person, and that my energy and spirit are infectious. I find that I am this way most of the time, but I am also human.
I had a crappy day today. I stayed off my feet most of last week, and have been trying to this week as well, but it's really not working out quite like I hoped. As a result, I have been in pain today. It's not the kind of pain that is so bad I need medication. It is the kind that makes me feel like I am not healing, because if I was, I wouldn't feel like I do. I mean, Adam carried me to the car twice Saturday night to help me stay off of my feet! I can only stay so sedentary for so long! Getting up to go to the kitchen for something, driving to the store, all of these bothered me today. I have an appointment tomorrow that I don't even want to go to because it's a 25 minute drive. I was going to swim again this week, but decided not to because I just want to stay home and heal.
It is so hard to stay positive when I'm out of a routine and not getting any exercise. It all snowballs when you add to al of this my deep down fear of gaining weight and getting out of shape. I know a lot of you are going to tell me I am crazy, that I haven't gained a pound, and that I'm not going to gain a pound. Y'all, I just want to remind you, I am an all or nothing kind of person. When I eat a handful of chocolate chips, I end up losing control and eating half of a bag! All of this time, I have felt like I've been just holding on to a preferred weight. I am scared that I'm going tho gradually gain now that I haven't been working out for a week and a half, and it's going to catch up to me.
I never want to go back to the old me….
That's the last thing I need on top of everything else. It seems like it's not that big of a deal, and compared to some of the issues going on in the world, it's really not. For me, though, it's my life, and I feel like I have no control over anything. I hate this feeling. It's just really easy to loose hope when the pain is there. The different issues always end up snowballing so fast when just one little thing goes wrong.
I know I am a long way from being healed. I just don't know if I could be doing anything else to help my situation get better.
I'm sure I'll have much better days soon….today, though, that's how I am feeling. This blog is a place for me to share my life with you guys. Most of the time the news is good, so just bear with me this time, ok? I would love to hear from other people that have gone through similar situations. How did you deal with feelings Iike this? How long we're you down and out? (New to Pugmamastace? Click here to see details about my injury) Thanks for putting up with my venting :-).
On a positive note, STYTCD was SO good tonight! I can't wait for the final next week!
Happy Trails,
Stacey
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Stacey I’m so sorry you’re injured and I’m right there with you. Ugh! It’s been almost 4 weeks since my last run and I was doing ok until the past few days. I strength train upper body and do core workouts to stay as active as possible. I’ve been working hard to stay positive but sometimes I’m just NOT ok with being injured. I get so frustrated that there isn’t an ounce of positive attitude in me.
I guess this really isn’t helping you is it? Hang in there. Allow yourself to be frustrated sometimes. Stay as active as possible.
For what it’s worth know you’re not alone 🙂
Thank you so much for your support, Jill! I’m glad you decided to rest, because you could be saving yourself a lot of heartache and preventing the injury from keeping you out even longer. This started in December and I didn’t surrender my running until the end of April. You live and you learn, right? Best wishes for a speedy recovery!!
Ugh. It sucks getting injured! Rest up for a faster recovery! You could also decide to take this time to strengthen upper body and core. Go for a swim or bike ride (or whatever won’t aggravate the injury further). Also focus on the things that you have control over! 🙂 Don’t forget to get plenty of sleep and continue to eat healthy- both of those factors affect how our body heals!
Thanks Nicole! I am planning on starting to swim again this week, hopefully. I can’t bike or do elliptical, or even walk far without pain. When I swim, I use a buoy so I don’t have to kick. Starting Monday, I can introduce the anti-inflammatory foods into my diet again. I had PRP two weeks ago Monday, so no NSAIDS or anti-inflamm’s for two weeks. I am getting lots of sleep, so that’s good. Thanks for the suggestions!!
Last year after I finished my marathon I developed IT band syndrome. After finishing a race like that I thought I could conquer the world, not so much. I spent the next few month resting, icing, going to PT, stretching, rolling and strengthening. I cried A LOT!! I feared gaining weight but the worst part was I no longer had my stress reliever. I learned a lot about myself during that time, I have never appreciated my body more since my injury. It took a long time for me to heal but I now take nothing for granted. I hope you get the answers you need from the MD. Good luck!!
Thanks Carrie! I’ve gone through IT Band stuff, as well. It just sucks not hanging my normal outlet for stress and everything. I will never take my body for granted again after this! I will enjoy every mile I run, bike, hike, swim, etc from here on out! Take care and thanks for stopping by!
I haven’t been injured (yet), but I can absolutely relate to feeling so angry and frustrated by not being able to do anything and the fear of sliding backwards on your health journey. I did spend about a month unable to really run because of a tonsillectomy, and while I’m better, I’m still not 100%. Some days are more frustrating than others.
With your diagnosis, is it possible to do low impact things like yoga or swimming? That way, you can take back some power. I know it’s not the same as running, but it’s something.
It’s ok to have negative days. We all have them. Just try to hang in there and focus on healing up and giving your body the time to do so. :hug:
Thank you for the suggestion, Jenn! I was getting into swimming before my PRP injections, and think I am about ready to start again. I can’t do yoga. No lunges for me….or standing for very long either. I love the name of your blog!, what cute puglets!!
Sending a BIG hug your way, Stacey! I know that feeling all too well and you are more than justified to feel down.
It sounds like you are making smart choices for your body. It’s tough to trust that our bodies will bounce right back when we are given the all clear, but it’s true! I have no doubt that you’ll be able to get back to full speed and will feel like your old self again in so time. xoxo
Thx Karla!! I’m trying t keep the faith 🙂 I hope you’re doing better!
I didn’t have an injury derail my fitness goals…kids did it!! After both of my deliveries it has been really difficult to find the TIME for fitness. As a result, I get depressed about my body and frustrated watching my husband continue his workouts while I am taking care of the baby. I know that I will be able to run again once the baby is older but right now I HATE not having time. So, I feel your frustration and understand your fears. I will tell you, though, that you will never allow yourself to get back to the “old” you. No matter what you will make sure that doesn’t happen. Even after 2 kids I still am not as out of shape as the “old” me 🙂
Thx Jen! You should see if hubby will watch the little ones for you a few times a week so you can get in some workouts. It’s such a weird situation for me, though. If I were to have an extend time off of work for one reason or another, the one thing I would choose to fill my time with would be working out! I’d run and hike and bike every day! It just gets so hard with the limited mobility and being here by myself. It’s getting old really fast….I just want to heal. Thanks for reminding me that I won’t let my body get to that point again. It’s just really hard to feel reassured about that when you completely stop physical activity. I hope you’re doing well!! Thanks for being a dedicated reader! 🙂